Make me Smile

I've read the Alchemist which is so overwhelmingly encouraging, it detaches you from your common sense. I suppose it is kinda inspiring, but in my unique case, common sense still prevails. Maybe that's why people with common sense stay common. Aww...

Also, I'm currently reading Good Omens by Terry Pratchett & Neil Gaiman. Late I know, but better late than never. It's not a keep-you-at-the-edge-of-your-seat-sort of riveting novel, but its definitely enjoyable and witty enough. A lot of satire about mankind's modernities using popular culture references. I liked the main theme of good versus evil, and the lines in it seem rather true if you take a moment to ponder about it- What defines good or evil? Maybe it simply depends on which side you're on. So yeah, I think it's worth your time to read it since the world isnt in black and white, but in varying shades of grey. Angels are tempted to do evil, devils are tempted to do good, whereas humans are the most capable of the most evil acts and thoughts.

Anyhow, I was contemplating how human nature is inherently flawed and taking others for granted is one such example. No doubt, I'm sure I'm guilty of that myself too. The temptation to take the easy way out & drop a line about not being able to make it plays mind games with me sometimes when I just want better for myself. I know sometimes it's just too much effort to keep one's promise, that's why I'm always grateful when one eventually does.

Unfortunately for me however, in the last couple of weeks, I've been pangsehed or been kept waiting for ages almost every time I've set a lunch date with a friend or friends. Sometimes, its reasons like I was too tired, I overslept/ I was too tired I slept through the alarm/ The traffic was bad etc etc. Its true I know, but working weekday lunchtime technically doesnt belong to me, and i wished people respected the sacred lunch hour. Nevertheless the crux of the issue is that people happily take it for granted that I will let them off lightly, accept their reasons and be ever so forgiving and nice about their no-show or their lack of punctuality. Its more than just mere courtesy to keep their word, because people hurt my feelings each time such misfortunes happen, although I make an effort not to suppress it (It barely worked, I bet). Their actions only meant how unimportant I am to them, because it doesnt matter to them whether they show up or not, because they're sure that it wont make a big difference.

I'm just really sad because even now during the school vacation when everyone is busying along with their own stuff, and things like that are just so easily let slipped. I dont even want to imagine how it will be like 5 years later when everyone is so self-absorbed, trying to carve their career like Michaelangelo sculpting the statue of David... Hmm, I doubt he had many friends.