Broken Arrow

I've been blue for a couple of days, which is actually unusual. A few hours earlier, I was sitting on my bed, hugging my knees after friend decided that staying home in your jammies will be the only activity tonight, when my eyes misted up again. It's been a while since the tear ducts acted up again, believe it or not. Then it hit me, I've been feeling incredibly lonely, despite having a healthy social calendar. I must have been staving it off with my binge-reading but I'm still glad for this mini-relevation. I suppose I'm one of those who enjoy both solitude and being in boisterous company, but I never deal well with loneliness. It creeps up on you stealthily, and wham! You're suddenly in the muddy trench by yourself, feeling as if the whole world has turned its back against you. This evening is one of those days. I've just realised that I didn't just lose a boyfriend, I've lost my best friend in the same person too.

Ah... This truly annoys me. I wish I had decent musical talents which would allow me to channel all my frustrations, misery, anguish, hopes & dreams into heartbreaking masterpieces of music, but all I'm doing is just plain ranting on this virtual site, sounding like a hormonal emo kiddo- which is neither profitable nor productive. Sigh. I apologise.