Let's leave this star-crossed world

I havn't felt so awful since 3Jan. I spent most of the day in bed with moist eyes, just waiting til it was time for me to leave. Tonight, I'm tormented by this immense helpless frustration. Maybe all the crashing and screeching mixture of emotions are just due to abnormal lunar/solar activity or to internal hormonal changes. Or maybe because my bro kidnapped my guitar and making me lack a creative outlet for my angst. (Zomg, by the way, its still January!)

As if my growing to-do list isn't a good enough wake-up call. Hello! Earth to WY! You're back to the reality of the Singaporean dog-eat-dog world. Who are you kidding? Exchange was nothing but a dream. Why am I not waking up?

I guess I've never imagined it to be so difficult- Missing a boy halfway around the globe, trying my darnest to get on with an independent normal life exactly like how I've left it last September, trying to cope with crazy advanced acct modules, heavy school work & part-time work so I can fund my trip back. I really, absolutely detest people who wallow in self-pity and yet I can't seem to stop myself from indulging myself in it, from time to time... Like now. The __?__ state that I'm in now is so strange, nothing like I've felt before. Contrary to popular belief, where the intensity is assumed to lessen over time, hasn't happened to me yet. Instead, it seems like as each day passes, I increasingly grow painfully aware of the distance. I think I need some strength, more so than ever. (And I actually thought that I was could take on the world...)

And I don't know what to write now because incomprehensible things are just swirling around violently in my head. If thoughts were tangible, I'll pull them out with my trusty tweezers & rinse my mind with anti-bacterial alcohol. That would really help.

On a lighter note, maybe the 2012 doomsday prophesies might come true. Financial crisis - check. Environmental crisis - check. Humanitarian crisis - check. Societal crisis - check. Moral crisis - check. Political crisis - check. Wardrobe crisis - check. Did i miss anything else out?

Ah... Alright, in that case, I think my problems are minute compared to the rest of this world's. So, i should just lan lan suck thumb & suck it up like I said I would. Now, THIS sounds familiar.