Bulletproof

Right, so more hopes have been dashed. It's the latest rage these days, especially for me. Disappointment & unrealised expectations is the theme for Fall/Winter 2010. I have hoped so much to spend beautiful august in england, but his parents didn't like the idea of me leeching off them for a month. J got rather mad at their decision, but I guess I've already expected this outcome from the start. I don't know, it might be just me being overly sensitive as they were such sweethearts to me last summer, but if i put myself in their shoes - J's parents probably want to see him date a typical wholesome white english girl who lives just down the road. I only qualify for 2 bits - wholesome (generally) & i'm a girl. Well... Still, it doesn't make my heartache any less severe.

I was looking forward to gazillion things back in the UK. I might as well start my list since I probably wont be fulfilling anything on it in the next 2+ years. :( I am very very very gutted. Not only I wont be seeing J, I feel guilty for asking J in the first place. :( :( :( I hate being sad. Alright, back to the list.

People
1) See J
2) See my flatmates & anyone else around

Weather/outdoors
3) English summer (which can be very nice!)
4) Countryside walks
5) Trekking/Hiking (which are enjoyable in cooler weather)
6) English beaches (but will probably avoid surfing in the freezing Atlantic ocean for now)
7) Camping

Places
8) London
9) Oxford (missed it the last 2 times!)
10) Norwich (home of Alan Partridge - my favourite fictitious middle-aged man)
11) Wales

Food
12) Pub & local ales
13) Cornish pasties (steak & ale please)
14) Sunday roast (J's mom's one is beautiful)
15) English fry-ups & other brunch goodies by J the master chef
16) Devonshire cream tea
17) Fish & Chips by the beach
18) Trying J's favourite Curryhouse
19) J's experimental cooking

Activities/events
20) "Ghost Stories"
21) Nottinghill Carnival
22) Brighton Pride Carnival
23) Great British Beer Festival (Earl's Court)
24) Themeparks
25) Music festivals (if they're not all sold out, that is...)
26) SHOPPING (Primark, Asos - come to mama!)
27) Proper night out in Central London
28) Proper pub golf

28 Farewells. Can my heart take any more?