Say goodbye

Chris left us for Melbourne this evening. And surprisingly I didnt shed a tear at the airport, for a dear dear friend leaving us for a year. When Sween left 2 years ago, I just got overwhelmed & my tears just started flowing after she walked through the gantries and waved us a last goodbye. In contrast, my parting words for Chris was "BYE SUCKERRRRRR!" Haha. His farewell card was full of loveeeee from his friends who bitched about him. As we waved at him through the glass to catch his attention, I was making all sorts of silly faces at him & he shook his bum at us. Haha, cheap entertainment for the security officers.

Anyway, so much for acting all brave & gungho about him leaving. Because it just hit me that I wont see him for at least a year. All these while, I've been taking his presence for granted, even if he's prone to screwing some of our plans & he can annoy me tremendously occasionally. Otherwise hes a harmless guy who's really into WOW, and when he's nice, he's a genuine sweetheart. His stupidity is actually endearing and adorable! Gasp. Haha. Okay, so all single & sweet girls can apply to win his heart. Yeah, sorry, I was saying... So much for putting up a brave front, because I just cried. I had to deal with this loss of this familiarity. One less friend to ask out during weekends, one less boy to bitch about, one less person at our gatherings.

I suck at keeping a straight face, but i'm definitely improving year by year. I delayed my emotion outburst a couple of hours later, so that's good news. But I saw people like Chris, who were leaving, and were accompanied by many many loved ones, I left the high emotional tension in the air in Terminal 3 Departure Hall. :( I don't even know these people, but I still felt a pang of sadness in my heart. I can never deal with departures very well.

Today afternoon was spent looking through possible accomodation, airtickets, reading my pre-departure guide etc etc. It's all a huge headache. Exchange is really exciting no doubt, but the preparations are pretty hellish. The unknown is reallyyyyy frightening me and I'm filled with tremendous fear about how things are going to be, as I leave everything behind. It's soon going to be my turn to leave at T3, in 2 months. Having mixed feelings is an understatement. It's a potent combination of fear, anxiousness, anticipation and hope. I guess there's always hope, I hope...

Oh, Chris if you're reading this, no dont believe what i just said ok? I lied through my teeth. I dont miss you at allllll. You SUCK! AND You still owe us 41bucks. Email us an I.O.U. Hahahahaha. OK lah- I miss you. :(